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Life With Stains

By On October 18, 2018

I need to make a mess. Life is messy. Bloody. Full of spit-up and pee and you’re helpless and you need me and I need to accept that I actually need to… Read More


Give And Take

By On October 17, 2018

And so I go. Around the corner, the incline lighting up my thigh muscles, I adlib my usual muttered warrior pep-talk, declaring that I can do it. I can climb this; I… Read More


Not Coping Well With a Whole Month of That

By On October 16, 2018

I did not have a good run up to, or a good time during, the High Holidays. The rain and the mosquitoes made hanging out in a sukkah a lot less fun… Read More


Why I Stayed Orthodox

By On October 11, 2018

When I lost faith in the rabbi that convinced me to be orthodox, one would have expected me to give up on orthodoxy altogether. Here's why I stayed committed.… Read More


How I Dreamed My Way Back To Shul

By On October 9, 2018

As if I never left, I find comfort in the familiar landscape of the sanctuary, reopening the siddur, which fits in my splayed palms like it was there all along.… Read More


I Am So Tired

By On October 8, 2018

And I bet you are, too.… Read More


Failing My Way To Leadership

By On September 27, 2018

I did everything wrong. And yet somehow, I keep trying to lead. Here is why.… Read More


Tell Me What These Words Mean

By On September 20, 2018

A dance with the Baal Shem Tov.… Read More

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Two Funerals… Forty Years

By On September 18, 2018

I remember standing with my sister on the steps of the funeral home having a violent argument with the rest of Daddy's family on the day of his funeral.… Read More


After A Year of Disillusionment, How Do I Find My Way Home?

By On September 17, 2018

A Yom Kippur reflection on the yearning for Gd in the midst of running away from His people. … Read More

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