9. And in the end, a candle lit somewhere in my heart. – I just filled up with light and remembered my essential task and the calling of my people to “Be a light unto the nations.” Yes. Especially in all this darkness. How can I be the light?
So it was, standing beside myself, I watched each of these insistent characters surface. Each had its say. Like at a big fat Jewish wedding. Or more apt – and more tragic – like at a big fat universal funeral.
All of these were my voices. All in chorus and in tandem and in fractures and in dissonance.
And then I looked out — at you. At my FB feed, at my friends, at my people. And what do I see?
I see French-flagged profiles emerge slowly like night stars.
I see troubled broken-tongued prayers for humanity.
I see my West-Coast liberal friends calling for LOVE.
I see my West-Bank settler friends calling for JUSTICE.
I see my angry friends. My mournful friends.
My French friends checking in as ‘Safe’ in Paris.
And I resonate with all of you.
And I clash with some of you.
I am frustrated by you. And, I have no doubt I frustrate you too.
But here we all are. All of us beside ourselves.
All of us deciding which voices to raise. What to repress? What to stress? What to unravel in the face of another senseless blood-let?
And so I ask this of all of us. How can we indeed stand beside ourselves and from there CHOOSE – consciously & conscientiously – which voices to raise? – How can we respond responsibly?
Please, dear friends, I beg of us all, choose wisely. Choose the voices that will be the most healing, the most healthy and holy.
To my friends who are angry, who are resentful…where will this take you? Where will this take the world?
We have the power to choose who we will be, how we will be.
As for me, I am striving to respond from the place where I feel called to be a light unto the nations…and unto myself and my family.
So for me, in this round, I’m choosing outrage at the perpetrators and compassion for the victims.
My many voices of indignation, frustration, resentment will all stand silently to the side today.
Je Suis Beside Myself.
And from that place, full-facing the darkness, I will try mightily to lift a voice for light.